Contents

And God said 9

Sambas for Christmas 10

Dear Postie 11

When he waits at the bar my father’s brain is miles above his pint 12

Withdrawal 14

Five days sober and glowing 15

Suicide is not your dad and your favourite rapper going for coffee 21

Perhaps Here Both Our Guiltlessness Becomes Clearest 22

A week and not a word since the argument 23

If you chained yourself 24

All my fathers are hunting dodos in the park 25

The Father Heavens 26

What if suicide is just taking off your headphones 30

The brick 32

Somewhere Far 33

More Sky 34

Lop Nur 35

Moonless June 36

When you lean close and tell me 37

Parks 38

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Questions for the Man Who Sold a Shotgun to My Father 39

Panasonic RF-P50DEG-S 40

Draw a circle around the city you grew up in 42

You are always the last to know things 43 44

From the Perspective of Coral

Some Dads 51

/ dream in which / 52

In Amber 54

The Secret 55

Supercalifragilisticexpialidocious 56

My father is sitting on the other side of the french doors 57